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One inch between each person. All except the Negroes, who are beautiful, look as if they eat nothing but hot dogs, millions of them. But the sea was warmer than the sea in Los Angeles. I bought a beautiful book on Japanese architecture, so beautiful I cannot bear to send it to Lloyd Wright, I cannot part with it just yet. Ruth Witt Diamant is here collecting poets for her Poetry Center at San Francisco State College. She has done so much for poetry and poets. " I am afraid that so far I have seen only the cult of the beach, swimming, suntanning.

The inner music started again. I reread what I had done on Solar Barque and liked it. Tonight I hear the music and all my feelings are awake. My greatest problem is one inherent in the experiment itself. Because I follow the pattern of free association the design is sometimes chaotic even to me. The attempt to construct a novel in this way is difficult. One image suggests another, one feeling calls forth another, one incident evokes another memory, none chronological but linked by one's memory, feelings, unconscious associations.

What we give the world is different. " You are possessed by a demon of selfdestruction. You are compulsive. You destroy. It is not your voice, your body, your true self. A demon inhabits your body. It is the spirit of the past. It is the past selves superimposing themselves over the present, blurring it, choking it. An Anaïs of fifteen sees her mother working so hard, work accumulating faster and debts even faster. Baffled by the bookkeeping, feeling helpless. Later, working for immediate needs, a model's small salary for four persons.